Ive needed another freer outlet .. for my creativity.. Something mindless, something that gives me permission to just play

The artist is sensitive.. sensitive to the unforeseen emotional world and its intrinsic design to abolish the remembrance of a sensible rational world.. a world one needs to live in inorder to create cohesively...

What does it take to be a success at Art... WORK.... !!!!

Feelings are an interesting thing.. Thier not logical,, They are what they are.. thier my feelings..

Well... Im at my 12 step group again.. and Im burbling around with my Play-doh .. and I get an idea...

This is a new area for me.. I am defining I think.. In a sense.. Part of my lifes work... THE GENERAL FEILD THEORY OF CREATIVITY...

DO I use the conscious mind when I compose , or the subconscious mind.. Do I use both.. How does the process work..

Thier are many ways to create.. and I use many inn addition to music composition, and traditional art, acting and writing..or instrument playing...

Artists have been well known to have a crazy set of emotions.. (pun intended)... Crazy is the word.. I know I suffer from many of the same symptoms... I have been broken and crushed many times in this life.. How many times Ive been a bug hitting a window shield... Only to come back by being resurrected by God.. But resurrected I have been.. and here I am now... to continue to do the work I was sent to do.. And that work is: 1. To find out who I am.. 2. TO help the poor, and the broken hearted.. 3. To let people know thier not alone.. The creator is calling them for a conversation...

What is it all about.. About all of this.. Always making excuses, and putting up a big front about facing childs play.. I wont let go of control.. Im to scared.... to scared of whats beyond that hill.. The eyes.. they see me... They see me... and I wont face them... I run bashfully behind a rock and, shivering and scared. I hug the ground with my lust of gravity and still-life and my last breath, and beat myself for my groping entranced in-braced cowardess... But not all is lost yet....!!1

I love to dance, And I love the artistic nature of dancers.. Dancing is allot like music.. expressive, but skills need to be learned..

So you have a notation program, or a notation ability within your sequencer.. and Well ,, havnt found a use for it.. But secretly you sure would like to at-least try it.. and see what those white spaces and black dots are all about.. Well... Heres an idea...

When its complicated, when its fast, when its energized, one can skip over the details... push past them.. One does not have to clean it up.... because thier going to fast, I run right over it... What was it my Drum teachers yous'd to tell me.... PLAY IT SLOW...

Ive had it.. Ive had enough.. Its been several days and Im clogged up.. I have so many creative Ideas, that Im stuck to do anything with anyone of them... When I get allot of ideas, I get excited as to how they can be structured, look and sound.... In a sense.. " IT TURNS ME ON" I DIG IT>... That is why I love art so much.. ITs my perfect temperament... However, At times, I get so many ideas, that I get depressed because I cant create everything I want in the moment.. not at the quality level that I want.. Then I just give up, get repressed and depressed... and wont create anything for a week or two.. Well ... Ive decided to create OMNI-OFFLINE..

I need to confess my music sins.... "What gets pushed up... !! Gets pushed back down... !!" "Even Monkeys fall from trees... " (ANCIENT JAPANESE SAYINGS.. ) Now Im stuck....Its so easy to tell others what to do to fix thier problems. but when it comes time for me.. WILL I GET OFF THE COUCH>>> I have so many ideas, and take myself so seriously , that I never write any music.. I just attempt to think my way into a new composition.. Instead I just end-up in oblivion... Now Ive got the Writers block...

Thier are many methods to creating ideas... for music, art, writing, dance, public speaking... Sometimes a person just needs a little structure to get the mind to open up and start the creative process....

Ever want to change something about your music and just cant... It all starts with a thought.. Its not a vision.. nor, inspiration... to start..... Just a thought..!! Not an idea.. Just an open thought to prepare the way.. And that thought is an open thought to always be open.. ITs called Willingness... To be williing to be willing to be willing to be willing to be willing... I have to tell myself, to be willing to be willing , to be willing to be willing..

Creativity may be said to be the ability to take a thing, or subject, and look at it differently on a continues basis... creating alternating , concepts and ideas as one develops deeper into the process of forced alternate thinking...

Ok. Ive written a poem or lyrics to a song.. and they sound.. SO SO..!! They just have that processed sound and attitude.. and Im not sure how to make them more alive... Write them again backwards...

Ever notice when your creating that composition that it sounds like a army march... or a stiff board..... You try and try and try and it has that processed sound.. doesn't sound free.. Yet you worked and worked and worked on it....

You say to yourself.. Im out of ideas.. I guess Im just not as creative as I thought... What do I do...?

The mind understands and is more compex then I realize... It gets board listening to the same old cultural conclusions and pre-adjusted temperaments and attitudes... Things need to be changed. sparks need to be introduced..